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Where was I?

In the month of July, I had 2 interviews lined up on campus. I didn’t get too excited because I know that most of the time an interview is just practice for “The Interview”. God is strategic like that. I had both at the end of the month on Tuesday and Thursday. I thought that I had a better chance at one over the other. And I was right, I landed an on campus interview for a job working with campus programming. I really wanted the job, but the panel selected someone else. My feelings were a little hurt, but I continued to trust God.

The month of July ended with my niece being born in Nashville, TN. Truth be told, I didn’t really have the extra money to go to Nashville that day. Halfway through the month, I was asked to be a judge for a pageant. I had just enough gas in my car to get the pageant. My sister had called that morning to tell me that she was headed to the hospital and felt like today was the day. I wanted to be there for her, but I went to judge the pageant praying that I would get a monetary donation to assist me in making the trip. Sometimes I get paid for judging pageants, sometimes I don’t. I received a check for $100 and I was headed to Nashville, TN to meet my niece with more than enough that night. I was just so grateful that God saw fit to offer me some financial assistance along the way.

God is a way maker. If you feel like you’re short this month, seek God for assistance. I know that it seems like he is never on time, but I promise his timing works out for your good in the end. Let God show you that there’s nothing deemed impossible, if you keep the faith. And at this point, I’m talking about faith the size of a mustard seed.

Now August gets a little tricky, but just bare with me. So I was chosen to go to Tennessee for my job. I was extremely thankful for the opportunity to get out of the office, but I was even more thankful that the trip was paid for in full. I wrote these exact words in my journal on August 12th: “Well God here I am headed to TN for work. I’m so excited. It’s my first one and even though my account is currently in the negative, I believe that a miracle will take place on my behalf soon. I know I get paid on Friday, but it looks like you’ve provided for me this week once again. I’m so grateful. I hear that there’s plenty of food.”

That night my devotional said “So in your season as David facing troubles, suffering, and persecution, follow these three:

Ask

Confess

Trust

Prayer: Lord, help me to ACT accordingly. Forgive my sin. Lord don’t forsake me; be not far from me. Come quickly to help me, O Lord my Savior. Amen.

So I had been making trips to Huntsville to prepare to serve at this women’s conference. You’re probably wondering if I had the gas to do that. I didn’t but God told me to serve, trust, and obey…

So the conference is here and on Friday night, they were preparing for offering. I had no intent to give anything. I only had $16 in my account on this particular day. I heard God tell me to sow $10 and I was like how will I get home with $6?

But in this season, I had learned to obey God especially when it sounds off the wall crazy… So I was obedient and I put promotion in the “For” box because that is what I was believing God for. 

Well on Saturday, I was blessed with $30 and my dinner from Steak Out was paid for. On Sunday, my lunch was paid for at Bravo! You can’t tell me that God isn’t faithful. I mean just go back and re-read the part where I said I only had $16 in my account when I heard God tell me to sow $10.

Did I mention that God also blessed me with the opportunity to emcee the Women’s Expo at the Von Braun Civic Center? I honestly was just being reminded that I am blessed. I am overflowing with purpose. I am chosen. I am more than a conqueror.

Now remember when I said that when I went to TN for my job, my account was in the negative. Well what I didn’t know is that my check would increase by an extra $400 because of the overtime worked. I felt like I had just hit the lottery. Except I forgot I had bills.

Now before I left for TN, God also told me to quit my second job. I was like, but…

Okay! Consider it done.

Now, it’s the month of September and I know that it was nobody but God that had kept me from drowning. Kept me from getting evicted. Kept my car from getting repossessed. Kept me from experiencing the worse…

I had never felt so weak. So unsure of myself. So not able to keep my head held high. I told God that I was tired and to the enemy that meant I had no fight left in me.

So on Tuesday, August 28th I had a phone interview for a job in Admissions. I was told on Tuesday, September 4th that I wasn’t chosen for an on campus interview by someone affiliated with our office. As soon as they left the office, I cried my little eyes out. I needed to hear some good news for once. I went to bed crying out to God that I know I have to be real close to something “BIG”. On Wednesday, September 4 I was in such a good mood. I mean I just felt like I could conquer the world that day. And guess what?

Greek life contacted me about a phone interview for Thursday, September 6th. I just couldn’t believe that God had still been working on my behalf behind the scenes. Simply because I was slowly starting to give up on myself.

On Wednesday night, I went home to discover that my lights had been cut off. The “light bill” money went on me renewing my tag at the end of August. And I felt like I could have made up the difference on my 2nd job, but God told me to quit working there, remember? So the night before “The Interview”, my apartment lights were off and the enemy thought he would have field day with my thoughts.

I think not. I stirred myself up in the Lord. I encouraged myself. I proclaimed that I would no longer live check to check. I decreed and declared that I was the head and not the tail, the lender and not the borrower, above and not beneath. I reminded myself of whose I am, and that I will praise the Lord for I am fearfully and wonderfully made. I spoke life to my account. I spoke peace over my mind/ thought process. I stated that I may be walking through a dark valley, but that I would fear no evil. I told the enemy that he tried to take me under, but in the process “I got my fight back”.

See the light in me never went out. I slept like a baby that night. I didn’t cry. I wasn’t worried or concerned. I was at peace because If I knew nothing else, I knew that God was for me. I  knew that God had a plan to prosper me and not harm me. I knew that God would bless me one day, but until then: I’m walking this thing out by faith.

I wrote in my journal that the phone interview was tough but that God had equipped me to handle myself like a boss.

Later that day, someone reached out and asked how was I holding up. I felt comfortable enough to share about my interview & the light situation, and later on I get a ding… Cash App notification for the exact amount of the light bill- $186. I hope you understand that this is all God. I just got chills thinking about how I felt that day when I was reminded once again that God is not looking at my bank account when he gets ready to bless me. He does look at my faith account, my obedience account, & my heart account.

On Thursday, September 13 I had an interview on campus for the job with greek life.

On Friday, September 14 I had an interview on campus for the job in Admissions that I went home crying about the previous week.

On Sunday, September 16 I was on the road headed to Kentucky for work.

On Thursday, September 20 I received the job offer from greek life. And the salary increase still has me waiting for my first paycheck to verify that the offer is real.

Now, I know you’re tired of reading at this point. So I’ll end the blog here:

Be obedient, regardless.

In the End: It was really all that I could afford to do at the time.

#BNspired2day

B.Nicole