brittany nicole

Here’s me writing a journal entry to myself on the blog…

Hey Beautiful,

You somehow managed to get the short end of the stick a few times this year. I think this time around though you handled things emotionally & physically like a boss. You gave yourself space to grieve and yourself time to heal. In some cases, the healing part continues. And I honestly think you’re about to level up because your focus has reached new levels. I’m proud of you for walking away this year. I’m proud of you for not staying in the traps that you fell for. I’m proud of you for not getting out of character when the truth revealed itself.

I love that about you. How you’ve learned how to invite grace into the most chaotic situations but not allow that to extend someone/somethings stay. When the time comes, you let people fly. The people that you loved. The people that you cared for. The people that hurt you. The people that want everything that you touch to fail.

By allowing them to fly (regardless), you allow yourself to fly too.

Nothing has the the ability to fly when tied down or when choosing to carry the weight of things that are no longer your problem.

The benefits of letting go:

• you closed out your first semester of grad school on a high note
• your blog is blooming honey and I believe this “growth” is giving you a sneak peak of what’s to come in 2021
• your mindset has shifted to seek out the positives + embrace the good (and roll with the bad)
• that list of standards (in my head) just got a few things added to it
• granting yourself forgiveness for lowering your standards + entertaining anyone/anything that smelled like a distraction

The downside to holding on:

• you’ll continue making excuses for the behavior
• your vision becomes distorted and you’ll start to see more potential, less reality
• you will fall harder trying to convince anyone that you’re worth changing/doing better for
• the other party starts to control you + your thoughts + your actions
• you end up with more scars & bruises for choosing them/it over you

Maybe loving yourself is less about how you treat you and more about how you allow others to treat you. Maybe letting go is less about how it it makes the other party feel and more about the benefits you receive. Maybe holding on was more about reminding you to remember your why and less about the who/what is trying to pull you from operating with purpose.

Require more honey. You accepted the bare minimum this year from way too many people/situations and we praise God that you eventually woke up.

Honey, remember this:

extending grace never meant settle.

Raise the bar, boo.

So what did we learn about in 2020?

There’s a distinct difference between you being “ready” and God’s timing?

What will we do in the meantime?

Wait for God to pull up and point it out. (it being anything that I’m supposed to entertain/pursue)

Keep being your inspirational self…

And don’t ever forget this much:

you’re going to come out on top in the end.

#BNspired2day