brittany nicole

Isaiah 55:8-9  “For My thoughts are not your thoughts, Nor are your ways My ways,” declares the Lord. “For as the heavens are higher than the earth, So are My ways higher than your ways And My thoughts higher than your thoughts.”

I realized earlier this week that I’m supposed to be doing so much more. I want to serve more. I want to give more. I want to be more…

More… like… Jesus.

I don’t want more so that people see me, but so that people see the Jesus in me. And I was having this conversation with God on my way to work on Monday.

Now, my title at work has nothing to do with the assignment that I’m currently on.

The assignment: TO BE OF SERVICE REGARDLESS…

Regardless had to be included because I’m not always going to feel like serving. I’m not always going to feel like following through. I’m not always going to want to be the bigger person.

I’m just not…

Reason being is because true service is removing self out of the equation. To understand that in the beginning, IT’S NOT ABOUT YOU. And in the end, IT’S DEFINITELY NOT ABOUT YOU.

I was praying for a new perspective on how to serve and be effective. It requires more work on my end because I have to choose to be selfless. Only a selfish person chooses to be selective when it comes to “loving your neighbor as yourself.”

About a hour later, I had this convo with a complete stranger…

Me: “Have a great rest of the day, sir.” (insert smile)

Him: “Thanks, you too. You know your smile says a lot about you. I mean I have never seen anyone genuinely greet and provide service to each person the way you just did.”

Me: Well thank you sir, I’m just doing my job. (The job God has me on, not the job that actually hired me…wink, wink)

Him: Well you’re doing an amazing job. It’s so evident that Jesus lives on the inside of you. Keep being a light here on this earth.

Y’all…

Nowhere in my job description does it tell me how to greet…

Nowhere in my job description does it tell me to how to handle difficult people…

Nowhere in my job description does it tell me how to meet the needs of those who are demanding.

Nowhere in my job description does it say much about being of service.

But then again, I work unto the Lord, not man.

Colossians 3:23 “Whatever you do, work at it with all your heart, as working for the Lord, not people.”

Where I’m positioned (for now) is aligning me for the road ahead.

Where I’m positioned (for now) is molding me to be a better servant.

Where I’m positioned (for now) is strengthening me to be a better leader.

Where I’m positioned (for now) is in direct correlation with my NEXT.

I CAN’T AFFORD TO GIVE IN!

I CAN’T AFFORD TO QUIT!

I CAN’T AFFORD TO STOP AND ENTERTAIN MEANINGLESS THINGS!

I CAN’T EVEN AFFORD TO KEEP THIS LIGHT BILL OF MINE PAID…

See in the dark is where I used to spend all of my time, because keeping my light on for the approval of others got REAL expensive.

So much time trying to fit in. So much time trying to find bae. So much time trying to be somebody that I’m not. So much time trying to apologize for the very things that make me unique. So much time trying too hard. So much time trying to plan every aspect of my life.

SO

MUCH

TIME

WASTED

I kept myself in the dark for an extended period of time because no one else could see my truth…

Now, in the dark is where I go to face my truth with God. It’s actually where our relationship started…

It was in the dark that I discovered that I have purpose. It was in the dark that I realized that my purpose would require me to disconnect from some things. It was in the dark that I realized I’m nothing without God. It was in the dark where I realized that I was only nice to people that I liked. It was in the dark that I realized that I had no standards for my relationships/friendships. It was in the dark that what I saw in the mirror was not who I portrayed to be in public. It was in the dark where I realized my amazing plans for my life were robbing me of GOD’S great plan for my life.

It WAS in the dark…

Thank God I don’t have to live there permanently.

Where we live is easily depicted in our actions towards others, which is why I now choose to live for an audience of one.

I’m still flawed, but this little light of mine keeps shining.

I’ve actually tried recently to put the light out…

And I’ve also tried in the past to turn the light off, but apparently I have failed once again at trying to control something that I don’t have complete control over.

Signed,

Someone somewhere adjusting my settings because this “light bill” has been paid in full,

B.Nicole

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